Chris:

     “Ain’t this what you came for, don’t you wish you came, oh? Girl what you’re playing for, come on, let me kiss that, ooh, I know you miss that. What’s wrong, it me fix that, twist that,” I sucked my teeth and turned off the car. The good songs always came on when you were about to get out of the car.

     I clicked the alarm remote and pulled up my pants, grabbing my phone out of my pocket. It was sunny as hell outside and Nischelle’s ass wouldn’t give up my glasses. When I stepped to the door of Chipotle I rolled my eyes and took a deep breath. This standing in line shit was ovay.

     I clicked the app on my phone and placed my order, walking through the other door and making my way to the cash register. When I got there this fine ass girl starred back at me. It was like shit went in slow motion. She looked familiar, real familiar.

     “Can I help you,” she smiled up at me. She had an innocent smile on though, I doubt she remembered who I was.

     “I placed an order on the app, 2 steak burritos with extra steak. One burrito had no beans and no rice, with sour cream, cheese, lettuce, and the mild sauce. The other burrito had white rice, no beans, lettuce, cheese, extra sour cream, the mild and hot sauce, and cilantro,” I said pulling out my wallet. She looked up the order and told me my total was $14.65. I pulled out a twenty and told her to keep the change for a tip. I never leave tips at fast food restaurants.

     I stepped to the side while she rang up the man next to me. Nischelle texted me with a picture telling me to hurry back, she was pouting in the picture. I smiled, her little cute ass always made me smile.

     “Sir your food is ready,” she looked at me and I realized where I knew her from. Damn it’s been a long time, a long ass time. I grabbed the bag and started to walk away but I turned around. Why the fuck did I turn around?

     “Uhm, Tanya, right,” I asked her. As soon as I asked I wanted to kick myself in the ass. I should have let sleeping dogs lay.

     “Yea, uhm I’m sorry who are you,” she smirked at me. She did remember who I was. Truthfully how could I fathom she’d forget her first love.

     “I apologize for that, again,” she rolled her eyes and rung up the next person in line.

     I turned around and walked out the restaurant feeling shitty. I don’t know why I even said something to her, but I felt the need to. I plugged my iPod up to my radio and turned to L’s Anthem and blasted it all the way back to Ni’s house.

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      “Ok fuck, marry, and kill me, Stacey Dash, and Lisa Raye,” Ni asked me before biting into her burrito. I chewed what was in my mouth before answering.

     “Aight, well I’d Marry you, fuck Stacey Dash, and kill Lisa Raye because on the new episode of Single Ladies she tricked on her mans and I don’t do disloyal bitches,” I said before taking another bite of my burrito.

     Nischelle side eyed me and I laughed hard, she hated when I called females bitches unless they truly deserved it.

     “What? That bitch deserves to be called a bitch. How you don’t hold yo nigga down? Kinda shit is that,” i stuffed the last bit of the burrito in my mouth and sipped my soda to help wash it down.

     “What you mean? She was facing more than 5 years. More than 5 though? And it was a federal crime, not no small shit,” Nischelle wiped her hand on her napkin and put the other half of her burrito in her bag and folded the bag down.

     “You never finish all your food, ever,” she cut her eyes at me and laid back against the pillows, “anyway, you supposed to hold your man down no matter what. She had him tricking off on her for anything she wanted, getting the dick when she wanted, getting all of his attention, and she can’t hold a nigga down? But she loves him though? Hell naw.”

     “I wouldn’t hold your ass down either, especially when you’ve been lying and missing, shiiiieeeet you’d be better in jail because if I get a hold to that ass it’s a wrap,” she giggled and folded her arms across her stomach. Watching her do that, I remembered something and I was trying to debate on if I wanted to bring it up or not.

     “Aye let me ask you a question bae,” I shifted towards the front of the bed and straightened my legs out in front of me staring at her.

     “What’s good homie,” she smiled and starred back at me. I still didn’t know rather bringing this up was a good idea but fuck it.

     “Why you didn’t tell me you miscarried, or was even pregnant for that matter,” I can tell as soon as she heard the word miscarried it brought back memories she didn’t exactly want to remember.

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Nischelle:

     Where did that come from? How the fuck did he know about it? And why the fuck is he bringing it up right now?

     I was trying to hold my tears back, but one slipped down my cheek. I didn’t want to let it fall but it did. He started to lean forward and wipe my tears but I put my hand up to stop him.

     I sighed deeply and decided to tell him, “Why would I tell you when I didn’t want it to happen?”

     His face scrunched up in confusion, “What do you mean?” I took another deep breath. I felt like the room was getting smaller.

     “Remember when I told you Rashad was drunk that night and I didn’t want sex with him but we had it anyway? Remember I told you the next week or so I was feeling funny and I wasn’t in school?” He looked like he was trying to remember and then nodded his head yes.

     “Well that’s what happened,” I had to sum it up. I hope he doesn’t ask me my feelings on it because I don’t think I can relieve those emotions.

     “Baby I’m sorry, why didn’t you tell me?” He crawled in front of me and laid his head on my legs, bringing his arms up to my thighs and squeezing me tightly.

     With his squeeze I felt the wind escape from my lungs. I felt my heart breaking in a million little pieces. I felt the same pain I felt when the doctor told me I had miscarried with my child. I didn’t want the baby, but I didn’t want it to die either. It was a part of me, and rather or not I liked him at the moment, it was a part of the man I loved.

     “Baby I didn’t mean to bring up ill feelings, I didn’t know you felt so strongly about this. I just wish I could have been there for you then as your best friend,” he starred up into my eyes. I finally let him wipe the tears that were now falling freely.

     “I’m sorry Chris. It’s just not something you bring up and talk about. My girls don’t even know. The only people that know are my sisters, and speaking of I know one of them hoes told you,” that caused he and I to laugh a little but I still felt my heart hurting.

     “I know you wanted to be there then, but you can still be there now as my best friend. Just do what you’re doing but up here. Hold me close and tell me you love me. Hold me and secure me in your arms okay? I need it right now,” I felt like such a cry baby but I couldn’t help it.

     I watched him get off the bed and side eyed him in confusion. He walked over towards the door and turned the light knob on low. He took off his jeans, shirt, shoes, and socks, and crawled on the bed next to me. He grabbed me around my waist and pulled me into him.

     He kissed my shoulder, my spine, and my neck before I felt his breath on my neck comforting me. I sunk into his grasp and let my body sink into his security. I felt so safe in his arms and to finally talk about what happened with him lifted a weight off of my shoulders.

     I closed my eyes tight and let his comfort place me in dream land.

kaylabreezytaylor:

ifyouonlyknewcbfanfic:

kaylabreezytaylor:

ifyouonlyknewcbfanfic:

 . . somebody call the weed man, i’m tryna get highhhh.

I just took a break from writing. I need to blow. Bleh >.<

Somebody keep me entertained !

Here watch Chris

 

Lmaooo girl ! don’t start nun !

I have to! He soooo cutee !! && I’ve been stuck on replay with his babymak’n songs sooooo

 

Lol I been listening to countdown since yesterday ! got me like .

theirloveaffairfanfic:

ifyouonlyknewcbfanfic:

theirloveaffairfanfic:

ifyouonlyknewcbfanfic:

 . . somebody call the weed man, i’m tryna get highhhh.

I just took a break from writing. I need to blow. Bleh >.<

Somebody keep me entertained !

Did you have to bring out the Jeezy quote on them tho? Lol

Lol Yassss ! This song explains my feelings right now lol.

It explains mine too.! Lol

lol i told myself i wouldn’t be an everyday smoker. that shit went out the window quick. i don’t smoke it everyday though.